You thought I’d be nice and give you a good ol’ FTWF picture post today, didn’t you? You’re all, “But Jami! It’s the last day of work before a holiday weeeeeekend!”
You know what I say to that? MAN UP, pussy face.
Heh. Just kidding, pudding cup. C’mere. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you. Really, if you can’t read all of this, s’okay baby. But try for me? Okay? Will you try for me?
I am asking A LOT;But i believe your effort would be worth it…. (LTR &)
I will give you (MANY) reasons that i may not be someone you will give any consideration to but i will say this: SOMETHING THAT IS PERCEIVED WITH OUT “UNDERSTANDING” could in fact be better than imagined, but don’t believe it because i have just said it, MAYBE IF YOU CARED ENOUGH ABOUT FINDING SOMEONE YOU COULD BELIEVE IN FOR ONCE AND REALLY MADE THE EFFORT (which would require lot’s of reading, about yes; me).
But then i also have to “BELIEVE; in you, Will you always have my back and best interest as i certainly would do so for you??LOT’S OF DEAL BREAKERS FOR YOU TO READ ABOUT, SO YOU KNOW THIS UP FRONT (i choose to air the hard to consider first) Then if you get past all that (at least for the time it takes for you to read much about me) Ya know like a novel (but true life) Then you can determine if you would like to ask me challenging substantive questions, the ones that no one else seems to ask or consider (like, living together) If were seeking a relationship it won’t be your place my place (our place) RIGHT?
Will i be dismissed if i said i pondered if GOD will allow me to be a father again? Carry on the male name? I have a daughter just in case your wondering…Her mother made a choice based on (her) drinking problem many years ago that cost me and my daughter many years of uncertainty and now lingering effects that i may not even be certain of.
What i believe i seek and what GOD may have in store for me may be complete opposite, but if you are of the age were you are not childbearing don’t let my pondering prevent you from turning my focus to you and maybe your family (if this applies) I know there’s many single mother’s out there, Only GOD knows were i best would be needed, It certainly is not here in lower Wisconsin.
I lived in Roanoke Rapids N.C and use to travel to Raleigh to the flea market on Rock Quarry Rd ( did i establish personal knowledge of the are?) I would relocate there AGAIN… IF YOU WILL HAVE ME, But MUCH you must read and consider see below:
This is just the beginning:
I would like to thank you for your thoughtful consideration: I am trying this approach in all HONESTY & SINCERITY because i would like to be with someone that can appreciate me (I don’t bring “drama” & don’t seek it) Please be mellow (laid back) generally of good morals would be a good base to start.
You will be hard pressed to find another guy like me. You can dismiss what i just said, your choice but if you don’t give *(us) a chance to explore we can’t have answers to what (we) seek.
What am i seeking? A BUSINESS & RELATIONSHIP (together) or SEPARATE…. (but LTR together is non negotiable)
Would be a (plus) if you CAN appreciate someone with the skills i bring to this (NO HIDDEN AGENDA).
(hint) I can fix things.(STOP) reading if your of the belief that (all men) are the same: If i was a woman the first thing i would like to know about a man (understanding this is a man with a UNFLATTERING track record with women) WISHING IT WAS NOT THE CASE EVER:
DOES HE HAVE ANY CRIMINAL HISTORY ( I DO NOT ) DOES HE HAVE ANY DUI’s ( I DO NOT) am i perfect NOT !(((( IF YOUR HERE YOU SHOULD FINISH reading *BEFORE JUDGMENT ))))..*yes; many like to judge.
I am still optimistic I will find my soul mate and maybe future everything to write (our) destiny together.
Maybe I am naive about my vision that there is truly a soul mate out there for me that I can entrust my battered heart and soul…If you only knew.
( I am of good character and judgment (except for…) yeap! My choices in women (one of those choices was a big deception to me) if you only knew.
Some college education but wisdom is not taught in college (but only some wisdom) Some may perceive my intelligence (could have been a pilot).
Maybe I am naive about what I perceive to be “out of bounds” actions, attitudes or indifference about what is important for a successful LTR relationship (I am not perfect) MY HISTORY REVEALS THAT (BUT IT IS MY HISTORY) Which I feel you have to HEAR to understand, BTW “understanding” & “compromise” (two very important) component’s to A SUCCESSFUL LTR.
I believe American’s (I AM AMERICAN) bombarded with so much glamor that the most meaningful things get watered down or become secondary or worse….
I am talking about “FAMILY”:
I hope you perceived that i am open if you have children now to be a good role model for them (This I know I can be).
I have something I can leave behind ( is all i am going to say there) But understand I AM HURTING FINANCIALLY, I know this is a biggie to overcome(i do have transportation and i am still self employed..though struggling in the wrong state, the wrong *environment).
I am somewhat of a homebody and feel if were home were not spending money (For this to be considered you have to be willing to investigate and read further how this arrangement could be an option) (did I mention I was never a good steward of money?) I am not perfectly wrapped with a bow, BUT I AM OPEN, HONEST AND DEEP, many say they seek this type of human (many women say they do) but many are scared about this type of man, they seem to magnetize over bad boys.
(*see Sandra Bullock) I knew she made a mistake to get involved with him let alone marry him (I feel bad for her)I am not out of the bad boy mold (though I am spunky in the bedroom).
Have I learned? Maybe…
But being self employed as I have been most of my life which includes wholesale and retail merchandising just one of several skills and or talents I posses requires reinvesting from sales (working on shoe string budget) means dipping into profit’s too (did I say my standard of living has always been better than poverty?) Not saying much there huh?
If you only knew…
LET’S WRITE (OUR) LEGACY TOGETHER, I BELIEVE MY CHARACTER, LOYALTY & HONESTY SHOULD BE CONSIDERED & GIVEN EXTRA TIME TO REVEAL ITSELF TO YOU (HOW DO I FEEL THIS SHOULD BE ACCOMPLISH?).
I AM NOT A BOT ! (if you love the water & boating were half way to enjoying life) Am i established at being real and familiar with the area with what i mentioned about the flea market?
Your first step should be to ask me to send you my profile page direct link to my yearbook, NO CREDIT CARD OR SIGN UP (direct link)
When you view it you can say… NO THANKS or you may “GET IT” to a certain extent BUT YOU WILL KNOW A LOT ABOUT ME WITH ALL THAT I WRITTEN IN THERE.
THEN WHAT ABOUT THIS PART: 2 I MENTION IN THE PROFILE?
As you will read on my yearbook profile page Part; 2 is exclusive… much more there which I don’t care to share publicly, I am going to need something more than 2 line responses for me to honor a request for such.
But here is the ultimate goal at least for me…
I would like to be with someone before Labor Day weekend, certainly before the holidays (yes; living together) So if this is a deal breaker before you have a chance to read more about WHO I AM you have not given (us) a chance, ALL I ASK IS GET TO KNOW ME (did i mentioned this is not for most to consider??)..I said you will have much to dismiss me here imagine what more could possibly be on the other side..YIKES!!
I know this is presumptive & or premature but you would be jumping too many hurdles before (we) have a chance to catch our breath, I HAVE TO “BELIEVE” IN YOU ALSO….If you only knew. how hard it is for me to trust and give what no one has received from me (my heart, my ‘love’).
Don’t get me wrong I would like to hit it off and be happy making things come together sooner:
(Part:2 is for those that are considering the possibilities) What I write here in no way I expect to be more than just doing your foundation READING for a better relationship in the future.If we are to get (our) place together or any variation of such is workable i am open to hearing your needs and acting upon them… HAVE FAITH, BELIEVE IN ME AS I WANT TO BELIEVE IN YOU. I won’t know you visited or read my entire profile unless you divulge that information to me (so what do you have to loose 30 minutes for something unique and special?) Well maybe my time judgment may be off, just depends on what your perceptions and ability to “understand”….”UNDERSTANDING” goes a long ways to a better relationship i believe.
I was just staring… Blinking… Until I got to the line, “This is just the beginning.” Then I started quaking, like; this really subtle TWITCHY quake that started at my head and worked it’s way down (MY) body; ev(ENTU)ally, I was tremmoring so hard that I couldn’t get my GOD damned food in my mouth. I was Michael J. Foxing, gently tapping my chicken biscuit against my cheek, nose, cheek, chin, cheek GOD DAMMIT. I realized though, as scared as I was, that I was laughing.
Then it was okay.
And this sentence: “You will be hard pressed to find another guy like me.” Anytime I hear this sentence, I have the urge to kick something in the nuts. (STAND CLEAR).
His insight into a women’s psyche is quite brilliant: “If i was a woman the first thing i would like to know about a man (understanding this is a man with a UNFLATTERING track record with women) WISHING IT WAS NOT THE CASE EVER: DOES HE HAVE ANY CRIMINAL HISTORY ( I DO NOT ) DOES HE HAVE ANY DUI’s ( I DO NOT) am i perfect NOT !”
Let me tell you, that’s the FIRST thing that pops into my head.
No, that’s a lie.
First I wonder if he’s got good teeth. Then I wonder how big his dick is. Then I wonder what he does for a living. Then I wonder if he’s funny. Then I wonder if he matches up with my political and moral beliefs. THEN, and only after I’ve addressed all of these other pressing issues, then do I wonder (OFTEN OUT LOUD) if he’s an alcoholic and a felon.
And then this: “(((( IF YOUR HERE YOU SHOULD FINISH reading *BEFORE JUDGMENT ))))..*yes; many like to judge.”
Woops. You might want to tack that one up there at the top, homeslice.
I thought he was going to break out into song when two lines in a row ended with, “If you only knew.” Ass hole. He did (NOT) break out INTO a SONG.
“Some may perceive my intelligence.” But most will perceive that you’re a near-illiterate moron who (DOESN’T) understand how to use parenthesis; or; semi; colons.
“I have something I can leave behind ( is all i am going to say there)” TRUE (romance) right; there. I think he’s talking about creampies.
“I am not out of the bad boy mold (though I am spunky in the bedroom).” Yep. I was right. He’s going to fill you to the brim with funky spunk and then leave it there. HURLK.
And how, you might wonder, would someone go about snagging this wonder of a (MAN)? “Your first step should be to ask me to send you my profile page direct link to my yearbook, NO CREDIT CARD OR SIGN UP (direct link)”
My Yearbook? Yes. It’s a fake Facebook.
And in closing, “Well maybe my time judgment may be off, just depends on what your perceptions and ability to “understand”….”UNDERSTANDING” goes a long ways to a better relationship i believe.”
I uh… I don’t understand.
